Even if I could listen to the heart beat of my baby in the belly, I couldn’t stop to feel anxious until the next hospital. Is my baby sill alive? Or… I rented the portable machine which can listen to the heart beat in my house and I checked it every morning. This was useful machine but the using time was limited, 1~2 min to avoid the pressure to the baby. The point where my baby’s heart was always different. I searched and often couldn’t find the heart beat during searching the point. At the day, I spent my time quietly. I knew it’s nothing. But I did.
In the meantime, I could feel the fetal activity/ baby’s moving. When I patted my belly, the baby kicked back. How can I describe this joy?
When I practiced my songs, I kept rhythm by patting. Sometimes the baby kicked back at off beat. The baby knew the beat already! I fell in blind parental love already. The baby was also strong and people around me noticed the kick by watching. Super strong kicks. Sometimes I wondered this is not the baby. probably the alien. Because my belly was moved like the movie. By echo, I was certain it was a human. Though it was not alien, I knew this movement. This was not kick, this was like the roll. Oh, I see. This feeling was Wa-Daiko, Japanese percussion’s roll.
A little by little, I could feel this is a real thing that I might have a baby. Hey, live to your fullest in this chaotic world.
NFT Art / アート作品
“ Maternity Eternity “
https://opensea.io/collection/maternity-eternity-0
Artist : Ekotumi
Photo : Richard Lee
